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I'm back and so much to tell...

2010-10-26T20:16:00.000-07:00

Well I am back, well and very happy! I have a new job now, finally was able to find something to better my life and get out of that hell of a job I had before... I am very very happy, a lot more relaxed and it shows!

Alex is over 18 months now, walking, talking, loves to doodle with crayons, that is his new favorite activity. He is a wonderful little boy who is ready to explore the world!

Mike is well also, nothing new with him now.

I will try to write more, but now I have things to do... lol

Averaging a post per month

2010-06-19T09:09:00.000-07:00

It is looking like I can't seem to do more than one post per month... way to busy with life.
Work sucks, and I still have not been able to find another job, working on it and we will see.

Alex is doing great, he stared going to Kindercare 4 days a week now, instead of 3, it is better for all of us, expensive, but better...

Mike is good, working away, also looking for a change in the near future...

That is all I have now... because nothing new is happening.

I'm really bad at this

2010-05-23T11:26:00.000-07:00

I just haven't had time to blog, so busy between keeping up with my family, keeping my house together and trying to figure out my job situation...yet somehow I am making it work.
Alex is standing now, not walking yet, but getting close! he is blabbing a lot, can say a few basic words but nothing that is clear yet, except for the traditional mama, dada... it is cute how he knows who is who!

My newest adventure, I am becoming a notary, yes I said a notary. It is something I've wanted to do for a while, not just for work but I think it is a good skill to have. i am not looking to make it a business, not yet anyway, but I think it is worth the investment to get certified. We will see how it goes!

We have a few summer trips coming up, first up Idaho in two weeks! Looking forward to it,a s I have never really been there, drove through it once, but that was not a very interesting experience. We are also going to Wisconsin this summer. Looking like an eventful year ahead, I can't believe it is almost halfway done!

Happy 1st Birthday Alexander!

2010-04-12T22:23:00.001-07:00

Yep, it has been that long!
My little man turned 1 today!
he is the best baby boy ever (not that I have any other baby to compare him to) and I am so blessed to have him in my life.
We are all happy and love watching him grow!

I've been missing you...

2010-02-07T09:32:00.000-08:00

Sorry blog, sorry readers... I've fallen off the face of the earth.
Its been a crazy last few weeks. I've been struggling at work a lot and have been actively looking for a new job with no success. Then I realized that this is what I was dealt and I need to make the best of it and give it another shot...crappy economy or not... so I am. I've changed my attitude and I'm trying new things to turn my goals around. Its been a week so I have no results yet.
I am going to get a few certifications done this year through work, maybe that will help with my eventual move into the HR field...
(To those who don't know I'm in sales for Wells Fargo)

Mike is doing great at work as usual, he loves being a sports writer at the Fairfield DR, he is good at it. He does a lot more than he should but I think it will pay off in the long run. He is the best daddy ever. Alex absolutely adores his "dada". Its great to see the boys on MOndays when Mike is off, they play, go to the park, go to charm the girls at Target... Mike makes a great Mr. Mom! :)

Alexander is 10 months old next week! Time flies! I'm already planning his first birthday party. I can't believe my little munchkin will be one in April. He is crawling all over the place, pulling up into standing, even trying to take a few steps holding onto something...craziness! He has developed quite a little personality, a little bit of attitude and brattiness, can't say I'm surprised. He's a mama's boy!
We have our 10 month check up in a few weeks, but form what I can see our little man is thriving, happy and learning new things every day.
Teeth are almost here, but have not broken through yet!

I will try to update more frequently.. have a great weekend readers! :)

Happy New Year!

2010-01-09T15:06:00.000-08:00

It's 2010!
Happy New year!

2009 was the best year of my life, because my son Alexander was born in April! He is the joy of my life and I can't wait to watch him grow into a little man! He is the sweetest little boy I've ever met, and I'm not being biased! :)

I decided not to make any resolutions for this year, I never keep them and then feel like a failure for not being able to achieve the goals that I set... instead I'm going to strive to make small changes in my life that may make a difference, it may take a few months time but I'll be a better person in the end.
Changes don't happen overnight, just like with the economy it will take a few years to recover from this recession. I decided that small changes here and there are going to make my life more productive and complete. The standard starting to exercise is a give, although that is the one thing I have not started. I vowed that I will be better about eating left overs and taking brown bag lunches to work. This I achieved about 50% of the time this last two weeks... I have some work to do!
Another thing I started doing is clipping coupons and going shopping with coupons all stacked, even 50 cents here and there add up!
My biggest gripe last year was how badly my job was going, a few positions I applied for fell through, so I decided to stay put, ride it out, focus on what I have to do and keep looking. While I realize that getting a new job is hard right now, I am really thankful that I have a job, and that it is so flexible!
I could go on and on, but I won't... so with that, happy new year my friends!

Toothache

2009-12-22T22:25:00.000-08:00

I haven't had a toothache in ages.... and it sucks! I have no idea why or what it is, but I do not want any dental work done before christmas... ugh!
I don't think cavities hurt? Right? so what the hell? I guess we'll see tomorrow, if it still hurts I'm going to call the dentist! here is hoping its nothing... sigh.... not looking like a very merry christmas!

Fa la la la la

2009-12-10T20:17:00.000-08:00

So its been a few weeks since I last posted anything, we've been busy! We had Thanksgiving, then Alex got baptized, then it was time to recover form all that and that brings us to here...
So yeah I did not have time to update anything.

We got our christmas tree, it is partially decorated, waiting to finish that. MIke also decorated outside, we have a little deer family in the front yard... of course mama deer is not working at this time... we have to make a run to Walmart to exchange her. Hopefully this weekend.

We hope to finish teh tree this week since we are doing a small christmas party on Sunday!

Santa at the mall

2009-11-20T21:33:00.001-08:00

Its not even Thanksgiving yet, but Santa is already at the mall. Thats weird, but it did not stop me from getting a picture done of Alex with Santa, his first encounter with the big guy! As you can see, it was a hit. Alex proceeded to grab his beard and then smile about it. I think I have a little brat on my hands. Poor Santa had a hard time untangling his beard remnants from my child's grasp. The upside of getting the picture done now was that there was no line, we walked up, I picked the package, sat Alex on Santa's lap, they gave me a squeeky toy, I squeezed it and he smiled... my kid is such a good sport.

Hair mystery

2009-11-15T11:18:00.000-08:00

My mom pointed out yesterday that I sprouted some bang wanna be hairs on my forehead... I didn't even notice until she mentioned it but they look horrible. To think that I have been walking around like this for weeks and no one mentioned anything! So today I am going to go get bangs cut to hide it... I swear, how does that happen, magically sprouting small hairs at the base of my hairline!!!

Conclusion:
11/19/09

It does happen, after pregnancy women can lose their hair in weird areas and it doesn't always grow back where it needs to... hence the sprouts.

I love and hate this time of year

2009-11-01T21:48:00.000-08:00

Fall is my favorite season, the weather is perfect, and the colors outside are so pretty... yes even here in Cali we sometimes have a glimpse of the four seasons. I love the smell in the air, that smell of fresh crisp chilly air mixed with the scent of nature and the occasional fire from a BBQ or someone burning wood in their fireplace. This is also the time of year when things get just a bit more cozy, when you pull out the pretty decorations, the hot chocolate and start making your christmas lists...

However, this is also the time of year when I get constantly sick... and now its not just about me, but my little boy too. He can't talk yet so he can't tell me what hurts, or what is bothering him, but it pains me to see his beautiful little face all red from a fever, or his eyes puffy from the lack of sleep and snot coming out of his little nose. I can't help him because I don't know how to... I have the humidifier going, his mattress is elevated, and I have the children's tylenol ready, but he hates that damned nasal aspirator and spray... every time I have to use that on him I keep apologizing profusely and promise him that I will never do that again. But I do, because I have to. I realize that tomorrow he won't remember it, but in the moment i feel so bad for him.

Until now I could deal with a cold or the flu, I would just take my medicine, curl up and feel sorry for myself. Now, I can't , even if I am sick I have to muster the energy to take care of my baby and hope that he doesn't get sick. We both got the flu shot, so hopefully it won't be too bad this year, but I worry all the time.

Its pretty outside, but not so pretty inside. Until his coughing stops and the snot stops flowing I won't be in peace!

Halloween Costume Drama

2009-10-25T20:31:00.001-07:00

We got Alex a panda costume for halloween. Mostly it was in honor of Pablo Sandoval of the Giants, who is affectionately called Panda (kung Fu Panda to be exact). Well the costume is all kinds of cute in a size 6-12 months. I expected it to be a bit big on him, given that he just turned 6 months this month, but the stupid head piece fits me!!! yes, you read it right, it fits my head! So I wonder if its ever going to fit my child without stuffing it (which is what the instructions say and I thought that was dumb).
Clearly the kid can't wear the costume, its way too big. So now I'm on the lookout for a new one..

Its too funny, a baby halloween costume that fits adults... hahahaha

Friends? Where are they?

2009-10-15T20:06:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder who my friends are.

Since I became a mom it seems that some of them have fallen off the face of the earth, when I reach out they don't return my calls or emails and if they do its a quick, "hey I'm still here but too much is going on" spiel that frankly I just don't buy... I'm the one with a baby, I'm the one who has no time for anything, and yet I'm the one reaching out.

Then there are the friends who are what I call floaters, they go in between being very reachable and not reachable at all... that one is a weird situation, I don't really know how to deal with that one.

The third type of friends, are the ones that are still around, the ones that know that even though I have another priority now, I still need and love them and they reciprocate. These are my true friends. They make an effort to keep in touch, to make plans, and don't mind my baby tagging along. I am really thankful for those friends.

While I understand that relationships can fade away, friendships fall apart, and life goes on, I still wonder how many of those people are going to call me asking for advice or play dates when they have kids... and being the naive person I am, I'm probably going to jump for joy and help them out... only to be hurt again later....

Sometimes its just best to let go and move on... so to those "friends" who have moved on, thanks for the fun times, and I hope you are happy doing whatever it is you are doing, I just wish you would've told me that you've moved on before I needed you again!

Fever, ER and no sleep

2009-09-22T22:44:00.000-07:00

Alex came down with a pretty bad fever. On Sunday night it topped at 105 so we took him to the ER. He has a viral infection, aka the flu... can't do anything except alternate between tylenol and motrin until his fever goes away. Luckily it looks like its letting up... today we were at 99.9 to 101.
No one told me that parenting would be this hard.... poor baby!

I love having Fridays off

2009-09-11T13:04:00.000-07:00

Its nice that I have so much vacation to blow that I was able to take EVERY friday off for the rest of this month! Which is really super nice because there are tons of things to do around the house and things to teach Alex.
I even got to sleep in a little bit this morning, only to wake to my son's babbling and when I walked in there to do the first morning feeding I nearly fainted from the stink that child produced... yes the smell of poop kept lingering in the room, God only knows how long he's been in it... but he didn't seem too bothered by it.
So I cleaned my baby and made his bottle, he ate with gusto (and a clean bum) and then fell back asleep... I snuck back to bed ad got another hour of sleep... great way to start the weekend.

My child is now taking his second afternoon nap, and then we are going to hit the mall!

Happy Friday everyone!

Alex is 4 months old

2009-08-21T20:22:00.000-07:00

I have been so busy being back at work that I forgot to update this blog on time!
Work is work, i don't have much to say about that. Sometimes its really frustrating and sometimes not so much... today was an ok day. I always look forward to 6 pm wen I can pick up my baby boy from daycare and hold him close.

Alex has now completed his 4th month and is well into his 5th month. He is cute as ever, especially when he starts laughing. Yesterday I discovered that snorting like a pig elicits wild laughter from my son. It was hysterical as I'm snorting around him and he just keeps laughing... gotta do whatever you can to make the baby laugh.

On a slightly different note, I'm doing weight watchers again, this time i finally found the right center to go to, with the right person as the leader. The lady at the Vacaville one was so unfriendly... I hated going there. This morning's meeting made me feel like I'm not alone and that support is available any time. Thats what I was looking for. Here is hoping it goes well. My first day (today) went decent, aside from it being over a 100 outside and I couldn't walk with Alex, it was a good day.

Here is hoping I can keep it up...

First day back to work and Alex in daycare

2009-08-03T21:54:00.000-07:00

Today was my first day back to work after 16 weeks of being home with Alex! It was a great day! All my coworkers were so thrilled to see me, and my boss was excited that I was back. I had 600 emails waiting for me, but that was to be expected being out for 4 months!

The hardest part was leaving in the morning, I cried as I kissed my son goodbye at 7 am (He didn't even stir). He had a good day with Daddy, but he was very aware that there was something different. His mama didn't great him like she did every morning for his entire life! I think he was a little thrown off by that, but overall was a happy camper!

Then came the time for Mike to drop off the little guy at daycare. We have a great daycare where we take him to, and he is only there part-time so its really not so bad but even so, Mike and I both cried that we had to leave our son with complete strangers for the first time. He did great at daycare though! All his teachers love him and when I got there this evening he was asleep in Miss Christina's arms... it was good to know that he was well taken care of. Of course I called like four times throughout the day to check on him.

So far it has been a great day and I hope the rest of the week goes as smoothly!

My Last Week Home

2009-07-27T08:55:00.000-07:00

Well its official, my maternity leave is over. This is my last week home.
I find myself strangely sad about this, I got so used to being at home with Alex and enjoying watching him grow and learn new things.
I guess all things have to come to an end eventually, and I know our new routine will work just fin, but I'm still sad a little bit.
I will try to post on how the transition is going.

Alex is 3 months old

2009-07-19T23:56:00.001-07:00

Milestones: laughing, turning on his side, lifting his head.
Working on: rolling over, pushing up onto arms and chest

Generally speaking being very cute and sweet!

Alex went to his first baseball game

2009-07-07T08:36:00.001-07:00

We took Alex to his first major league baseball game last night. He really enjoyed all the people and lights and the atmosphere. All the old ladies were talking to him and smiling at him. He spent most of the time in one of our laps, or in the baby bjorn, which he took quite well (much to my surprise).

He had his Lincecum T-shirt and jeans on and Mike made me put his panda high-tops on. What a good idea that was, because Pablo hit a grand slam and we were convinced it was because Alex is our Lucky Monkey and his Panda shoes brought the team good luck!

Looks like we have a little ball player on our hands, which is fine by us! It was a great day and we can't wait to go again!

Not to be gross...

2009-07-03T13:00:00.000-07:00

...but how does baby poop travel up?
This morning I got the biggest diaper breach I've ever seen in my life. It was everywhere, it went all the way up his neck and he was in a sitting position when the poop happened...
Needless to say I have a lot of laundry to do. Looking back the whole thing is pretty funny, but at the time I wasn't sure which one to clean first, the kid, the clothes, the changing table??? The small amount of pee that he let out on top of it all so didn't matter by the end... I just wanted to get the whole mess cleaned up.
God bless the little pooper, at least he is healthy!

Thumb sucking

2009-06-30T23:58:00.001-07:00

Caught Alex almost sucking his thumb, it was so cute, he didn't quite get it into his mouth.

Alex in Mike's Baby Clothes

2009-06-17T23:48:00.001-07:00

Alex is wearing one of Mike's baby outfits. So cute!

Alex is 2 months old!

2009-06-13T12:11:00.000-07:00

Alex turned 2 months yesterday. He is covering most of his 2 month milestones, he is cooing, smiling and being very alert. I started noticing that he is getting more control of his arms and legs, and is slowly making progress lifting his head at "tummy-time".
Our only issue is that he doesn't sleep well at night, it seems like he is still up every 3-4 hrs to eat. I know he is only 2 months old so I'm hoping by the end of his 3rd month we will have made major progress in the sleep department. I have to give kudos to Mike for being up until 5 am every morning to take care of baby boy.

My little smiley!

2009-06-10T11:58:00.000-07:00

Alex gave me the cutest smile yesterday, we were just "talking" and he errupted in this smile. The other one is for Daddy!

I'm still alive... just barely

2009-06-01T00:12:00.000-07:00

Its been a crazy month, baby boy is taking up all my time, so much of it that I could barely get away just now to let you all know that yes, I am indeed still alive and well. Exhausted, but well.
Alex is 7 weeks old today, he is smiling and cooing and is generally very cute. Everything worked out with the feeding issues we had. Now our biggest project is trying to get him to sleep through the night... one day at a time.
He has his 2 month shots on Friday so I am trying to prepare for that emotionally. I hope he won't get a reaction after the shots because I have plans that weekend.
Coming up on 2 months, at which point I will post new pictures.

Scary moment

2009-05-08T16:03:00.001-07:00

Alex started choking this morning, lucky that Mike heard the "strange noise" on the monitor and went to check on him. Aperantly he had milk coming out of his mouth and nose. Needless to say we freaked out and took him to the emergency room. He got a few x-rays of his chest to make sure he didn't aspirate any of the regurgitated milk, (sorry I know this is gross) and everything is fine. Little guy gave us quite a scare, especially because there is really no way to prevent this from happening again. So he will be coming back to sleep in our room in his cradle for a few more weeks.

The good news is that he has gained a lot of weight, he is 8 lbs 4 oz as of today, so he is thriving.
We are exhausted, our whole day's schedule got thrown off by this overnight stay at the hospital, but I don't care, because my baby boy is fine!

Thank goodness!

Did we avoid colic?

2009-05-01T16:35:00.001-07:00

I am hoping that we will be one of the lucky ones and not have Alex be a colicy baby, so far it doesn't seem like he is. I understand that colic is that they cry for hours on end unconsolably... so far we haven't had that. He does cry, but those are normal cries.. so far so good. I hope I didn't jinx myself...

The First Two Weeks

2009-04-25T11:45:00.000-07:00

Well here we are two weeks after my baby boy was born and things are looking better. I am still a little sad sometimes, I hear thats normal, its called the baby blues...
Luckily I have great family and friends, they've stopped by to visit so I've only had a few alone days, so I'm surviving.

Having a tiny baby is a lot of work!!! I didn't think it was going to be so much work, but it is. Alex requires a lot of attention and care, which of course he does and I am happy to give it to him. But sometimes I feel overwhelmed!

He is two weeks old tomorrow!

My baby is here!

2009-04-19T16:57:00.000-07:00

Alexander Istvan Corpos was born a week ago on Easter Sunday!
He weighed 6 lbs 7 oz and was 19 inches long.

This first week ha been rough, but we survived!
Here is a picture!

Getting very close

2009-04-08T21:39:00.001-07:00

My baby is due in about three weeks!
I can't wait to have this baby, what does he look like? Who is he going to be after?
So much excitement yet so much to worry about too.

I have one more week of work before I go on maternity leave, I've been working from home the last week or so and it gets boring. I feel like I'm cooped up in here. I'm afraid to go anywhere far incase I go into labor. Makes me realize I would go nuts if I didn't work. I'm sure being a stay at home mom is different, there is always something to do, but I'd need to schedule each day and know that something is happening, otherwise I'd go nuts.

I guess the 12 weeks I will be off will be a good test.

New carpet and the curse of cookies

2009-04-03T21:36:00.000-07:00

The carpet got put it today, which completes all the house projects we had happening this year. It has been a pain in the butt getting the kitchen and bathroom redone and then re-carpeting. All that we have left now is to move the furniture back and build baby's furniture and we are all set.

Note to self, do not do anything major like this while pregnant... its not easy and i have to take a break every few minutes, and the breaks tend to come with cookies, which then make the break extra long because I'm full.
I've consumed more cookies in the last few weeks than I ever have in my life... an entire box in one night sums it up.

I'm tired and thinking of all these cookies makes me want to have more...

The Nursery

2009-03-22T17:15:00.000-07:00

Finally we are making progress on Baby's room, its starting to come together really nicely. I have to give credit to Mike, he has been working very hard on making Alex's room very special. The ceiling is light blue, the walls are yellow and the inside of the closet is light green, very cheerful and friendly. I can not wait for the new carpet and the new blinds to be put in and then we can start building the baby furniture.

I'm getting close to having this baby, almost 35 weeks and he can technically come anytime after 36 weeks.
A few more minor projects to be done around the house and then we are all set for baby and our new life.

I will post pictures of the nursery when its complete, right now its not quite where I want it to be yet.

Happy Sunday!

Raging Hormones

2009-03-12T19:22:00.000-07:00

I have never been this moody in my entire life. I actually snapped at Mike for no reason and I snap at people at work... but everyone can be so stupid sometimes.

Don't they know that they need to let a pregnant woman be, that she is always right and should always get her way... maybe I'm living in a daydream but I thought that being pregnant gives me an excuse to get away with pretty much anything...

Ok so I know that this is not fair, and sometimes I am unreasonable but I'm tired, I have not slept well in 4 months, I can't move and I am always moody. This little baby boy needs to be born already because I don't like who I am turning into.

What's keeping me going is that in a month I will meet my baby.

I feel loved!

2009-03-08T19:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my baby shower and so many friends and family showed up!
I feel really loved and can't believe how much stuff baby boy got. He is all set now to start off his life.
Angela did a superb job putting together the shower and being an awesome hostess, the games were a hit and everyone loved their prizes and had a great time.

I was so tired by the end of it all, but it was so nice to see family and friends, because in about 7 weeks I won't be able to get out much and I will miss that part of my life.

Its been a great weekend.
A huge THANK YOU AND KUDOS to Angela for throwing me the best baby shower ever!

I'm cranky, leave me alone...

2009-03-02T22:20:00.000-08:00

Thats it, I'm fed up with this constant change of hormones. One minute I'm myself and the next I just want to cry and pout and sleep... oh yes sleep.
I'm tired of the drama at work, and my house still being under construction, its frustrating to have to look for items I put away and now I can't remember where. Not having a minute to just chill... and eating everything is sight...

And, on top of all this I'm getting bigger, its harder to do everything... yes this is a bitch-fest, deal with it, I'm cranky and I don't want to hear it, so just shut up and listen to me whine until I decide I'm done... which for the purposes of this blog is now.

Good night.

Sadness

2009-02-19T20:04:00.000-08:00

My dad is really sick, and there is no cure for what he's got. He's been suffering from this auto immune kidney disease that supposedly causes a lot of protein to be released into the blood stream and thats not a good thing. He has had this kidney problem for many years but its finally gotten so bad that he had to go find out if there is anything that can be done about it... and there is, but its just a treatment not a cure. Basically its either some sort of chemo therapy, other immune suppressant drugs, or a kidney transplant... all of which are super invasive and expensive and no guarantee that they will work.

I just don't know what to do, I can't help in any way, and I wish I could.
My dad has not decided what he is going to do, treatment wise, or just living with this condition for however long he can... and thats what scares me. This is one of those things that no matter what decision you make, its never going to be he right one, because if he choses treatment, there is only a 50% chance that it works, and the condition can come back. If he choses to just live with it, his kidneys can fail at any time, and no one knows when that can happen.

This sucks and I wish I had some answers.

30 weeks pregnant and counting

2009-02-18T19:50:00.000-08:00

I've crossed the threshold, so I've been told. I'm in the home stretch. While its still an uneventful pregnancy, I think I am getting more tired and nauseated, which I was hoping would not come back.
On top of this all, I feel so big... this is normal I realize that, but still its a bit annoying.

On a different note, our kitchen is about to get finished, and we are hoping to get the bathroom quote in the next week or so. We have to order 450 tiles so that is ready to go. Mike has to pop one off this weekend so we can order them.
I'm excited to be making progress, as this whole house remodeling has been getting on my nerves.

I'm still offering a free couch to anyone who wants it, granted its ugly, but its free.

Darn Nesting Period

2009-02-15T23:31:00.000-08:00

Today was one of those days where all I was able to do is clean, reorganize and buy a lot of stuff to clean and reorganize. Not that this is a bad thing but I am tired and I still feel like there is so much to do.

We ended up getting a new mattress for our futon, it was way overdue, the old mattress is so bad that you can actually feel the bars digging into your butt when you sit down. Luckily the new mattress will be here on tuesday.

Also, as part of my nesting, I decided, totally randomly, that I wanted a new couch. So we went to Ashley Furniture Home Store and looked around. We found a really cool living room set. Its a reclining couch and a love-seat plus two end tables and a coffee table. We got a super deal on it, so I don't feel so bad.

Now we just need to get rid of the old couch and coffee table, if you want it let me know...

Enjoying a lazy weekend

2009-02-08T12:00:00.001-08:00

At this point in my pregnancy I decided that it is very important for me to have relaxing lazy weekends. My weeks are crazy and everything around me is happening so fast, sometimes I find it hard to keep my head above the water. The biggest challenges we are having is getting all the construction done before Alex comes. People tell me not to worry about it, that it doesn't have to get done before baby comes, but it does. LIfe is hard enough right now, I can't imagine construction with a newborn.

So while I appreciate everyone's input, what we need is support, and help to move things along. Supposedly the kitchen will be done this week, tho they have been saying that for weeks now and its still not complete... the other thing we are waiting for is our asbestos test from the ceiling to come back so we can start working on baby room.

But, for today I am just going to relax and not worry about anything, I have plenty of things to worry about starting tomorrow morning.

Sometimes the news can be very wrong....

2009-02-04T21:56:00.000-08:00

Like yesterday's story about Wells Fargo executives going to a "junket", it was a story with unchecked, invalid facts that caused a major commotion in the company and employees like me who work very hard have to suffer for it.

For the first time in my life i am furious with the media for printing false information, without really checking their facts...
First of all it was not a junket, it was a legitimate trip that was earned, and well deserved. So what if a few executives go to Las Vegas to blow off some steam, that is what they worked hard for... now thanks to the news story all 2009 conferences and award trips including my trip to Hawaii has been cancelled by Wells Fargo. I worked really hard to achieve that trip, and now I have nothing to show for it except frustration, disapointment and sadness.

Really, did that reporter have nothing better to do than tarnish the name of one of the largest and most stable banks in the nation, for what???? a simple trip that has been taken every year for the last 10 plus years... !

I know I have a great job, and I'm lucky to be a part of a great company, but I don't appreciate anyone talking trash about something they have no clue about. He should have checked his facts before printing false information.

Meanwhile, the rest of us "peons" work our asses off to make the bank what it is, and get nothing for it... thanks a lot AP news!

I met my niece today

2009-02-01T22:40:00.000-08:00

Finally got to meet my niece today!
She is a little over two weeks old, and so precious.
It felt so nice to hold a baby and I can't wait to hold my son in my arms!

I went flying... and not in an airplane

2009-01-30T21:26:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I had a small accident, I fell down the stairs, butt first, I bounced all over the place.
Normally this would be pretty funny, however being almost 7 months pregnant it was quite scary at the time.
I'm fine, so is the baby, but I'm bruised and sore as can be.

I was simply walking down the stairs with my blackberry in hand and my bluetooth in my ear and I think my feet just went out from under me. Luckily Mike was there to catch most of me, and I fell backwards, so I fell on my butt and back, and my tummy was spared... than goodness.

Everything is fine, I'm sore and a little shook up but now I can laugh about it.
Alexander just keeps on kicking so I know he is fine.

Work Blues

2009-01-22T19:30:00.000-08:00

Its been a tough last few weeks for me. Work is hard, and the economy is tough, and the two don't go well together. I have not been able to make the goals expected of me and my bosses are not very happy with me.
Granted, its not really my fault, but I sure feel like a failure.

I'm still in the same predicament where I am going to stay put and wait this recession out and hope that it blows over. All the while looking at my options. Not that I really want to give up this flexibility, and awesome job, but I'm getting really tired of my bosses ragging on me even though I am doing everything I can.

I hate complaining about my job, because overall I really like it and don't want to leave it.
Here is hoping something changes, and if not at least I have 12 weeks of maternity leave coming, so thats a plus.

I'm an Aunt

2009-01-15T21:09:00.000-08:00

My little niece, Lila Jane Corpos was born this morning around 3:30 am.
She weighed in at 8 lbs 15 ounces and is 20 inches long.

I am super excited and can't wait to meet her.

Welcome Baby Corpos #1

Annoyances

2009-01-13T22:22:00.000-08:00

I hate it when people are online, and if you send them a message they don't respond. My sister was on tonight for like an hour and I messaged her and she ignored me. I just think that if you are going to be online and available to the workd then you should at least acknowledge the people who contact you...

I don't know what her issue was, I'm just annoyed. Its really not that big of a deal... stupid pregnancy hormones.

Me 6 months pregnant

2009-01-10T00:24:00.001-08:00

Here is a picture of me at 24 weeks pregnant.

What is wrong with the world today?

2009-01-08T20:03:00.001-08:00

My mother in law sent us an email about what happened to a close family friend and fellow parishioner - at the church Mike and I got married at-over the New Year weekend... read this and tell me if you are not disgusted with teenagers today. Its hard for me to believe that kids today are so stupid and disrespectful.

Subject: Prayer for the Palladino Family
Dear CSS Friends:

I would like you to know about a crime that happened against my family and ask you to pray (especially for my children). San Carlos is a "small town" in many ways, so perhaps you have already heard some things. I do not need to be private about this and don't mind if you tell anyone else. Believe me, we've been plenty "exposed" already as you'll see as you read on.

After Christmas we were all away on vacation in Reno, Nevada. My husband's family has an old victorian house there where the family gathers for vacations. We left on Monday, Dec 29. On Tue, Dec 30 our daughter's (now former) best friend since kindergarten and another girl (both ninth graders like Anne Marie) broke into our home to "case the joint" in preparation for a big New Year's Eve party they planned to have here while we were away. On Wed, New Year's Eve, the second girl was dropped off at my home along with two other girls (one from our church) with that mom thinking that they had been invited to spend the night. The mom doesn't know us or our daughter and never called, never even watched them walk to the door, just dropped them and left. The girls went around to my backyard and crawled in a window. Then some other girls, including my daughter's best friend (former) and they set up for the party by taking down my family portraits and paintings and hiding my son's video game system. A friend of theirs arrived with alcohol and they paid him.

Then people started to show up and within a half hour to forty minutes (about 9:30 pm) the party was so loud and out of hand that a neighbor called the police.The police came to my home with all these young teens (the majority of them 9th grade girls) who were drunk and smoking cigarettes and pot and simply kicked them out, shut the doors and left.

A couple hours later, some of the kids broke back into my home and slept all night long. They wrote on several walls including slurs on my daughter's wall and on a special sign that my son had salvaged from the former "Palladino" Restaurant in Belmont which was in their big room upstairs, they wrote on furniture and put out cigarettes on furniture and tables, slept in all our beds (there was a used condom by the side of my little 10 year old son's bed), they went through my jewelry and stole all my rings, and stole and damaged other items.

We came home on New Year's Day, cutting our vacation off early after we heard what had happened (we were tipped off by none other than the "best friend" who is behind all this). Our home smelled like a casino. There had been beer cans dropped on the floor and pools of beer everwhere, cigarrette butts all over. A big mess.

The damage and stolen property could have been much worse and that is not our main concern. Really, if someone had broken into our home and stoken things it would have felt much better than what actually happened. The biggest damage here is psycological. The kids have been crying. My husband has been crying (and he never cries) because he can't stand thinking of our little ones being afraid to come into our home, sleep in their beds or go the bathroom without stressing out and the thought of what our daughter is having to endure and will endure at school is overwhelming. It's been really devestating.

We've been speaking to the main kids involved. Some have come forward, some have yet to come forward. The parents of the main girls involved have offered to pay for damages and repairs. We have notified the Carlmont high school principal (most of the kids that were here go to that school). We are still not sure if we are going to press charges. Even if we don't the case will go to the juvenille detective next for an investigation and restitution. These kids that we know of are all listed in the police report and if any of them are caught doing anything in the next year this case will automatically go to trial (or at least that's what I'm told). Yes, a couple of the kids at least were from St. Charles.

Now I am sick with a cold, so I will not be at class on Thurs, but I want you all to know from me what happened. Denise had planned on giving the lecture this week anyway, so that's a blessing. We have guest speaker coming to do a brief presentation as well.

Please feel free to pass this info on to others in the class that I don't have an email address for or who don't have email. I know you will all be praying and if you ever pass by 2300 St. Francis Way in San Carlos maybe you can keep an eye out. :)

Hugs and love from your sister in Christ,
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I hope that the family decides to press charges. If someone did that to my house I would press charges so fast that they won't know what hit them.

A Good Christmas Story

2009-01-07T21:16:00.000-08:00

I know Christmas is passed, but this was a very cute story I read and wanted to save it here. I hope that someday I can instill good values like this story shares in my children.

Its a little long, but worth the read.

I remember my first Christmas adventure with Grandma. I was just a kid. I remember tearing across town on my bike to visit her on the day my big sister dropped the bomb: "There is no Santa Claus," she jeered. "Even dummies know that!"

My Grandma was not the gushy kind, never had been. I fled to her that day because I knew she would be straight with me. I knew Grandma always told the truth, and I knew that the truth always went down a whole lot easier when swallowed with one of her "world-famous" cinnamon buns. I knew they were world-famous, because Grandma said so. It had to be true.

Grandma was home, and the buns were still warm. Between bites, I told her everything. She was ready for me. "No Santa Claus?" she snorted.... "Ridiculous! Don't believe it. That rumor has been going around for years, and it makes me mad, plain mad!! Now, put on your coat, and let's go."

"Go? Go where, Grandma?" I asked. I hadn't even finished my Second World-famous cinnamon bun. "Where" turned out to be Kerby's General Store,=2 0the one store in town that had a little bit of just about everything.

As we walked through its doors, Grandma handed me ten dollars. That was a bundle in those days. "Take this money," she said, "and buy something for someone who needs it. I'll wait for you in the car." Then she turned and walked out of Kerby's.

I was only eight years old. I'd often gone shopping with my mother, but never had I shopped for anything all by myself. The store seemed big and crowded, full of people scrambling to finish their Christmas shopping. For a few moments I just stood there, confused, clutching that ten-dollar bill, wondering what to buy, and who on earth to buy it for. I thought of everybody I knew: my family, my friends, my neighbors, the kids at school, the people who went to my church. I was just about thought out, when I suddenly thought of Bobby Decker. He was a kid with bad breath and messy hair, and he sat right behind me in Mrs. Pollock's grade-two class.

Bobby Decker didn't have a coat. I knew that because he never went out to recess during the winter. His mother always wrote a note, telling the teacher that he had a cough, but all we kids knew that Bobby Decker didn't have a cough; he didn't have a good coat. I fingered the ten-dollar bill with growing excitement. I would buy Bobby Decker a coat! I settled on a red corduroy one that had a hood to it. It looked real warm, and he would like that..

"Is this a Christmas present for someone?" the lady behind the counter asked kindly, as I laid my ten dollars down. "Yes, ma'am," I replied shyly. "It's for Bobby." The nice lady smiled at me, as I told her about how Bobby really needed a good winter coat. I didn't get any change, but she put the coat in a bag, smiled again, and wished me a Merry Christmas.

That evening, Grandma helped me wrap the coat (a little tag fell out of the coat, and Grandma tucked it in her Bible) in Christmas paper and ribbons and wrote, "To Bobby, From Santa Claus" on it. Grandma said that Santa always insisted on secrecy. Then she drove me over to Bobby Decker's house, explaining as we went that I was now and forever officially, one of Santa's helpers.

Grandma parked down the street from Bobby's house, and she and I crept noiselessly and hid in the bushes by his front walk. Then Grandma gave me a nudge. "All right, Santa Claus," she whispered, "get going." I took a deep breath, dashed for his front door, threw the present down on his step, pounded his door and flew ba ck to the safety of the bushes and Grandma. Together we waited breathlessly in the darkness for the front door to open Finally it did, and there stood Bobby.

Fifty years haven't dimmed the thrill of those moments spent shivering, beside my Grandma, in Bobby Decker's bushes. That night, I realized that those awful rumors about Santa Claus were just what Grandma said they were, ridiculous. Santa was alive and well, and we were on his team.

I still have the Bible, with the coat tag tucked inside: $19.95.

May you always have LOVE to share, HEALTH to spare and FRIENDS that care.
And may you always believe in the magic of Santa Claus!

What a way to start the new year

2009-01-05T17:48:00.000-08:00

I'm sick again, I'm coughing up my lungs. This can't be good for Alexander. Although he seems to be fine, doesn't seem to care that I shake him all over the place.
I hate being sick anyway, but being sick while pregnant is not fun at all...

Robitussin tastes nasty....

I don't relaly feel like writing more... so blah

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T17:20:00.000-08:00

Hello and Welcome to the 2009 edition of my divine rhetoric!

Its been a while since I wrote, I've been busy with the holidays and have been sick and working a lot.
2009 will be an exciting year for us, we are expecting little Alexander at the end of April. We can't wait to meet our little baby boy and preparations for his arrival are under way.

We are still in the middle of some house projects, the kitchen is not finished yet. We are hoping this will be done within a few more weeks. Just in time to start the painful process of the bathroom remodel. At least we are getting these out of the way and done.

I will be going to San Diego on a business trip in February, I'm looking forward to that. Then in March we are going to Hawaii for a few days, that will be a much needed and deserved vacation. After that baby is here and life will never be the same! :)

I have a few resolutions that I really hope to stick to this year, so I will list them here to remind me. Aside from the usual losing weight once the baby is born here are what I hope to accomplish this year that will hopefully make me a better person:

1. Read a book every month
2. Keep my house clean and tidy
3. Stop impulse shopping for crap I don't need.
4. Make more time for friends and family.

I wish you all a very happy new year!

Family Times

2008-12-21T11:58:00.001-08:00

Its interesting how weird it is to go back home to my parents house and spend a few days there. That is where I was this past weekend and it was a great time at first but quickly became very annoying and I remembered why I left home in the first place. Sure I miss them a lot, and love to hang out with them, but I love the option to leave when I want to and not have to stay.
I went home this weekend because my sister had her holiday concert Friday night and then we got the christmas tree decorated, which is a tradition on Saturday. So that part was fun, but then Sonia (my sister) wanted to go to the mall to finish her christmas shopping. Being the good sister that I am I took her... big mistake!!! Avoid all malls, especially Valley Faire this time of year. It took me forever to find a parking spot, then I got tired real quick at the mall, then I couldn't remember which parking structure I parked in... so by the end of the day I was exhausted... so that part was not so fun. I'm not a very patient person so this latter part took a toll on me. My mood changed from cheerful to grumpy and I was not fun to be around... on top of it all my parents started being overly concerned about my drive back to Fairfield, as if I haven't done that drive tons of times already...

I hope my children won't find me as annoying in my later years as i find my parents to be sometimes, I hate to say this, because I love them very much, but I am so glad to have left the nest and moved on with my own life.

When everything is enough...

2008-12-15T20:57:00.001-08:00

Thats it! I've had it, I'm done... work is annoyingly tiring, stupid, and I need a break.
Kitchen is not done, bathroom needs fixing... why is everything falling apart this time of year?
Mike is unhappy at his job, my mom at hers... and the holidays are causing a lot of stress.

I normally love this time of year, but this year its just a little too much. I feel like going away for a few days, somewhere secluded where I can curl up by the fire place, read a book, drink hot chocolate and just be relaxed. Where I don't have to worry about making my goals at work, keeping my house clean, buying presents, making people happy. I just need a break.

Baby Update

2008-12-09T21:44:00.000-08:00

I'm having a boy!
His name is going to be Alexander Istvan Corpos.
I can't wait to meet the little guy.

Remodeling and Pregnancy

2008-12-03T20:41:00.000-08:00

Our kitchen is gone, gutted, kaput... however you want to say it, its no more.
While I am super excited about getting my new modern dream kitchen that cost me an arm and one leg, I am already tired of the mess and the uselessness of my house. And its only been two days.

Mike and my father in law spent today scraping off all the 30 year old wallpaper so we can prime and hopefully paint in the next week. Once that part is done, we will get the cabinets put back up. Then we have to get the counter tops ordered, the dishwasher, sink, disposal and faucet and then done...seems like a lot.

Although I am not doing anything in this project, mostly because I am not home when the demo and construction is happening I already hate it. Just emptying out the kitchen was a pain in the butt, everything is now living in the living room.
I find myself walking into the kitchen for a glass of water, only to find no glasses and no water... the split second before I decide to freak out it occurs to me that "oh yeah we're remodeling".

I have pregnancy brain... forgot that my kitchen is getting remodeled, even though I can SEE it. I forgot to set my alarm this morning, put makeup on, then I drove the wrong way... on top of that I had a cranky day... sigh.
What makes things exciting is that tomorrow we will hopefully find out what the baby is.

Christmas is all around now

2008-11-29T17:14:00.001-08:00

I just finished decorating the inside of my house all christmasy. I bought some glitter glue and decorated our stockings, even made one for the baby, labeled Fred, since we affectionately call him (or her) Fred the Fetus. :) They turned out really cute actually. I will post a picture here in a little bit.

I am proud to say that I am 90% done with my christmas shopping, only a few people left but that can be done as the days go by, I'm not worried. So far this has been a relatively easy christmas to prepare for. I'm looking forward to next weekend when we get our tree and put out the outside lights and reindeer in the front yard.

So weird that the year is almost over, I remember spending New Years 2008 at Disneyland and it seems like that was yesterday.
Next year will be very different, we will have our baby and start new traditions, its so awesome. I can't wait.

Happy Holidays!

Turkey day at its finest

2008-11-27T22:08:00.000-08:00

We had Thanksgiving Dinner at 1 pm this afternoon since Mike had to work today.
I started smelling the turkey at 8 am and it smelled really good. My mother and father in law came up last night to start setting up and cook the bird, they got up at 6 am to put the turkey in the oven...mmmm
It was a free range turkey and tasted so much better than a regular turkey. Plus we felt good that our bird had a good life before it became our dinner.

We had some organic dishes, some non organic dishes, yummy salads, my favorite Hungarian dish, steamed red cabbage, and three pies... yes three pies. Man I think I;m set with food for a while. :)

The best part is that I am off tomorrow, time to relax and digest all that food.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Holiday madness

2008-11-25T17:07:00.000-08:00

I love this time of year, but I'm starting to realize that pregnancy and holiday preparations don't mix.
I just don't have the energy for all this running around, cleaning, shopping, wrapping presents, etc...
Tomorrow is the day to prepare for Turkey day and while I won't be doing much this year since Mike and his parents are cooking I still dread having 20 people over. Don't get me wrong I love all of them very much, but I just need a weekend of peace and quite to wind down since things are picking right back up in a few weeks, with the kitchen remodel.

Speaking of the kitchen remodel, our entire garage is completely filled with cabinets and kitchen stuff. Its kinda scary how much stuff there is.

Well here is hoping that this week goes well.

Scary Movies and Ketchup on my car.

2008-11-16T00:08:00.000-08:00

Watching scary movies, like I Am Legend, is probably not a good idea being pregnant. I forgot that there were some scary scenes in that movie, (even the alternate version) and jumped out of my seat a few times. I sure hope I didn't jostle the baby too much.

What's worse about movies like this is while I know that its just a movie and it isn't real, I always get all creeped out and can't sleep after watching it. So I hope I can sleep well tonight and no zombies are going to climb into my room. (Yes I know I sound like a little girl). :)

On a slightly different note, some creep squeezed ketchup on my windshield late last night. I found my car like that this morning when I went to the mall. Managed to clean off the dried on gunk. Why would anyone do that? All I can think of is it might have been some punk ass kid in the neighborhood playing a mean joke. Luckily it was just on the windshield, thus it didn't cause too much damage to my paint. We know all our neighbors and I can't imagine why anyone would do such a thing.
What is weird is that whoever did this clearly had to walk up to my car and literally squeeze the packet of ketchup onto the window.
I think I also heard a knock on the door last night, but because I don't answer at all unless I am expecting someone I didn't even bother looking out. This makes things even scarier because if someone was playing a prank, why would they knock on my front door once, walk away, and squeeze ketchup on my car??? ANd what would've happened had I answered the door? I'm a bit freaked out about this...
Of course I could've just imagined the knock on the door, I don't know.

So its been quite a day, and I ope I won't find ketchup or anything else dried on my car tomorrow morning.

Fetus cookie cutters, a little disturbing

2008-11-13T21:18:00.000-08:00

I found these. They are a little disturbing.

Feeling girly today

2008-11-11T22:42:00.001-08:00

I was feeling kinda girly and needed a change of scenery on here, so I went with this pink design. I kind of like it.
Let me know what you think and I can redesign this thing.
Also, I am looking for new suggestions for my title "ramblings and contemplations" is getting old. Suggestions are welcome.

Utter confusion turns to anger

2008-11-10T22:27:00.001-08:00

I am confused and angered by Prop 8 passing, and even though its been a week since the elections I decided that maybe it was time to say something, to jut let it out and move on from the mixed emotions... here it goes.

It seems a little strange to me that we (Californians) give chickens and cows rights to live in a better environment but we can't give people the right to marry whomever they want??? How is that constitutional.

The sad thing is that this dumb proposition was 1.) misrepresented to the public and misunderstood by many people, which is why it passed, and 2) has nothing to do with gay marriage, and has everything to do with human rights.

For the first time in the 18 years I've lived in this country I'm ashamed of California!
As for me, I did my part in voting no on prop 8, and it was not by much that it passed, and while there is not much I can do about it, I felt the need to just vent for a little bit.

Election

2008-11-04T19:54:00.001-08:00

I am proud that I voted in this election! Its my second presidential election, and that makes me very proud. I became a citizen of this great country because it gave me so much opportunities that I would not have had anywhere else, and even though I miss my beautiful Hungary, I found my second home here where I will live my life. I am proud to be a citizen of the United States of America!

I hope you voted too, because it is a wonderful feeling, privilege and right to be able to be a part of history, no matter which direction it goes I am glad I voted!

Baby Update

2008-10-29T17:58:00.000-07:00

I had my 14 week appointment, no ultrasound today but we heard the baby's heartbeat. So cute.
Everything is as it should be, baby is healthy. I have to wait another 4 weeks to find out the gender.

I got a flu shot, now I'm cranky.

A gripe on bad drivers

2008-10-27T22:03:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of driving amongst idiots on the road.
Seriously, how hard is it to use turn signals, and turn your lights on when it gets dark.
Today I spent a lot of time driving and there were several incidences where I had to fear for my life because people have no idea how to drive their cars. If you don't know where you are going, you shouldn't be driving!!!!

I wish there was a mandatory law that would require everyone between a certain age group to retake their drivers test every year or so, it would eliminate so many idiots off the road. I am not trying to blame people of a certain age, but lately it seems that those people, more than others, make so many mistakes.

People, please use common sense and judgement, and if you don't have any of it, then get off the road!

Baby at 12 weeks

2008-10-20T17:24:00.001-07:00

Here is my baby at 12 weeks.
Can't believe how cute it is.
One more month and we will know its sex.
I think its a boy though...

I love Autumn

2008-10-12T19:57:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day I could smell the crisp chilly scent of autumn in the air. It was an amazing smell, every year it makes me feel so happy and comforted. I guess autumn is one of my favorite seasons.
What I love about Fairfield is we are in an area of California where you can see a sample of the seasons changing, if not in a very obvious way but you can and that is very special to me.

The changing of seasons is one of the things I miss about Europe. Which is why I would love to live on the East Coast because they have the seasons... but then I remember how much I hated living in South Dakota and then I don't want to move.

Enjoy the beautiful colors, smells, and other signs of this wonderful season!

Cooking

2008-10-08T19:46:00.001-07:00

I decided that its time I start cooking dinner every night. figured I better get into this habit so once the baby is here we can have a nice dinner together every night. Besides, going out is getting old and expensive.
I made some great chicken fajitas tonight, they are soo yummy. Last night I made a chicken parmesan paste (okay so it was frozen) but it was still good.

So now the fun part is trying to figure out what to make for dinner every night... so far the last few days have been easy but I'm running out of easy ides. I suppose its time I open my cookbook.

Meanwhile, I'm enjoying my fajitas.

My relationship with TUMS

2008-10-01T22:15:00.000-07:00

TUMS are gross, but they help.
Despite the grossness I stick with the powdery little tablets because the nausea and bloated-ness is so unbearable sometimes.
I know that this is not going to last forever but I already wish it would stop.

On another note, I'm 2 accounts away from making it to Hawaii!
I will make that goal this month.

Yaay for almost weekend.

Things Smell Funny

2008-09-29T23:10:00.000-07:00

I hate the smell of ribs... so I discovered this past weekend when we went to my in-laws house for some ribs.
Boy I thought I was going to yak... and normally ribs don't entice me anyway, I don't eat them... not enough meat for all that work.
I am also getting very gaseous, so I bought a bottle of TUMS today to help ease that... gross. I hate any type of chewy supplements, I prefer to just swallow and get it over with. But I have to do everything to make me feel better.

I am in my 10th week so getting close to the end of the first trimester.
Baby is doing well.

Otherwise, things are going well. Work got better, things picked up so that is good.

I'm realizing I don't have much to say today, so I'll check back later.

Ciao!

Baby at 9 weeks

2008-09-22T19:02:00.001-07:00

I had my ultrasound today and baby is very cute. We could see the definite "human" shape and its head is so much bigger than the rest of it. It was so cute. I can't wait to meet this little person.
Heard the distinct heartbeat again, that was very comforting.

Yaay for baby :)

Goodbye WaMu

2008-09-18T17:07:00.000-07:00

It is a sad day.
I said goodbye to WaMu and opened new account at another bank.
We have been with WaMu for over 10 years and after all that has been happening it seems like a good idea to move on.
Its a pain in the butt to switch accounts, but it is getting done.

This whole process will probably take a few weeks to complete, which is fine, but I'm still sad since I really liked WaMu.

I sure hope we won't have to go through this again anytime soon.

A good weekend

2008-09-14T22:08:00.000-07:00

I needed a nice relaxing weekend and I got it! :)
Saturday I just hung around the house, did a few chores that I was able to do.
Got a haircut and watched some movies.

Today (Sunday) woke up went home to visit my parents and my sister, then we went over to Mike's parents house for a nice birthday dinner for my brother in law. Too bad the birthday cake made me gag... not that it was bad, on the contrary one of the best cakes, its this food aversion, it just rubbed me the wrong way so I didn't eat it.
I felt a little bad about it but then I got over it.

Now its laundry time and then bed. I have a hectic day tomorrow, hoping to be successful with a few sales!

Are zits normal in pregnancy?

2008-09-11T23:09:00.000-07:00

Are we back in junior high here...holy moly I have not seen this many pimples on my face since the day I started 7th grade!
I know my hormones are out of whack, but I was hoping this phase of my life was long gone.

My cover up and foundation loves me, this I know from the amount that has shrunken in the bottles... and I hardly ever wore makeup before. Now I'm forced to look like cake face...

Not only do I look like I just stepped out of the 7th grade, I can't stop picking at them little monsters too... I sure hope that this is just a momentary thing and it won't last 9 months, because by the end I won't have a face left.
My poor baby is going to grow up with one of those freak mothers who goes on those reality shows for not having a face, or even worse, one giant pimple... oh good lord, I'm having daymares about this too.

Time for some serious exfoliating!

Forgetfulness is no longer funny

2008-09-09T22:31:00.000-07:00

I have no idea what is wrong with me.
I forget the simplest things, I can't focus, especially at work. I have been doing so well up until last month and then it felt like I fell face first into the dust.
Basically I crashed and burned. Sadly, I am starting to question my ability to do this job and let me tell you its a no brainer job. The stupidest thing would be to give it up an look for something else, yet I can't seem to motivate myself to do my daily work. It isn't hard, just tedious and long. I started to write myself little reminders of the smallest things so i don't forget.

I can't believe I forgot the two most important reports, and my boss is not happy with me. They know I'm pregnant but I can't use that as an excuse for the next nine months... can I?

What do I do? I don't want to slack off, that is not me, and I sure as hell don't want to lose my job. Yet, the truth is I don't want to go into work at all this week... how sad considering I love my job...

I hope this changes, because I am not happy.

Heartbeat

2008-09-05T22:27:00.000-07:00

I had my first appointment at Kaiser this morning. This was really a check-in to confirm the pregnancy and sure enough we saw the little embryo. It is not much bigger than a half a peanut but there was a tiny heartbeat.
To see that little thing and the tiny flicker on the screen was so amazing. I teared up knowing we had created a little life and can not wait to meet this little person.

I hope I am going to be a good mom, if I can be half as good of a mom as my mom is to me I am going to be happy. My mom is such an amazing, strong woman and I strive to be like her everyday. She is my inspiration and I hope to raise this baby as well as she raised me.

Now my responsibility is to take care of me and this little person inside. Geez, all of a sudden I am responsible for someone other than me, that is really scary. :)

I haven't fallen off the face of the earth

2008-09-01T20:24:00.000-07:00

I've just been busy. Many things happened in the last few weeks that kept my attention from this blog.
I am happy to announce that I am pregnant! Yaay! I found out about a week ago and I'm still in the early stages so I didn't know when to write this post.
We finally told our parents this weekend so I figured its now ok to post this.

I'm soo extremely happy! The baby is due end of April early May, no exact date yet.
I have my first appointment in two weeks to get the first few tests done.

I feel tired and nausceus sometimes.

Back from Vegas

2008-08-19T17:39:00.000-07:00

I just got back from an exhausting, yet surprisingly fun business trip in Vegas.
I was there since Sunday.
I think the company is finally starting to realize what we are looking for in sales meetings, so they gave us more free time to do what we wanted.
I got to meet up with an old friend, two days in a row, so that was wonderful. Got to play with her 3 month old little boy, he was such a delight.
I will post pictures into picasaweb later so make sure to check it out. (thats a picture of me and my coworker Zuzi)

I smelled like smoke the entire time, everyone smokes there and they are allowed to everywhere, the stench was awful.
I have to do at least 4 loads of laundry to get that out of my clothes.

At least I am back home!

Yaay!

Lake Tahoe

2008-08-11T17:24:00.000-07:00

We went to Lake Tahoe this past weekend. We saw Sammy Hagar in concert on Saturday night.
The show was awesome and it was a great little getaway.
We had a wonderfully relaxing time, our hotel was right on the lake front, so it was beautiful to wake up to the view.

Now we are back in the swing of work and life... sometimes you just need a small weekend getaway.

A Day of Recovery....

2008-08-07T21:42:00.000-07:00

... well not really. Things went back to normal today despite the scary day we had yesterday. Both of us went back to work.
Actually it was not a bad thing to get back to the swing of things. Mike is doing a whole lot better and very very relieved that everything is ok.

This is going to be a good weekend. Mike is off tomorrow, we are also going to the Giants game. Saturday we are driving to Lake Tahoe, going to the Sammy Hagar concert, then coming back on Sunday.
It will be really nice to get away a little bit.

Scary Night

2008-08-06T15:55:00.000-07:00

We spent 9 hours in the ER this morning. We went in at 3 am and got discharged at 12:30... what a night.
Mike was not feeling well around 2 am this morning, he had chest pains, numb arms, light headed... all the classic signs of an impending heart attack. My initial reaction was that he was overreacting, he is only 31, at that age they don't have heart attacks right? Actually that is not the case, heart disease does not discriminate.

We called the Kaiser advice nurse, just to be sure, and they suggested we go into the ER so Mike can get checked out. I"m thinking OK, a few hours, they will do some tests and we get to come home... on no, no no. It took 9 hours. They did two EKGs, one chest x-ray, drew his blood twice and then a treadmill test. End result: he is fine it was probably just acid reflux, aka heart burn.

Needless to say both of us took the day off, we are both zombies, since I only got 3hrs sleep and he barely got an hour.
I've been working from home off and on today but I am so tired I think its time for another nap.

I just want this day to be over with!

Mamma Mia

2008-08-03T00:55:00.000-07:00

I went to see it today and I think it was an awesome movie, BUT I seriously have a problem with Pierce Brosnin singing and wearing 70's Disco-garb... wow, that was interesting. He didn't seem to really fit that role. Not sure who had the idea to have him play one of the "potential dads". I mean the man is hot, given, but he can't sing and this role was so not typical for him... I don't know, it just seemed weird thats all.

On the other hand, I think Meryl Streep knocked it out of the park with her performance in this movie. I had no idea that woman could sing. She is one of my favorite actresses.

If you are in the mood for a cheerfully funny movie, this is great, I recommend it.

Snake incident

2008-07-31T23:10:00.000-07:00

Mike was off of work today so after I got home from work we decided to go for a bike ride on the trail behind our house.
We had a great time talking and riding side by side.
All of a sudden I see something on the road in front of me, it was skinny and about 3 feet long. By the time I realized that it was a snake it was too late, I had run over the poor thing twice with my bike tires.
It was a small gopher snake not really harmful to humans, and the poor little guy was just sunning himself on the trail then I come along and crush his ribs. All I saw was that he retreated into the brush on the side of the trail.

After this all happened I felt so bad, because I may have killed the poor thing and that certainly was not my intention.
I hope that it can recover form whatever damage I may have caused it.

Lesson learned: always look what is in front of you. I was lucky that it was only a small gopher snake and not a rattle snake, because had it been a rattle snake I probably would not be here typing about this experience.

I hope the snake is doing OK... poor thing.

When epiphany comes too late....

2008-07-28T22:26:00.000-07:00

Riding my bike is my FAVORITE activity, so I ventured out on my bike today only to find out that I can't even ride one handed, much less release the steering altogether, something I was quite good at.
I decided to pick up a few things at Safeway off of Waterman which is about 1.5 miles from our house. Its usually a 10 minute drive but it took a good 45 minutes roundtrip on the bike. (not including the 20 minutes I spent in the store). There is a lot of truth to not going to the grocery store when you are hungry. Everything that was within reach looked so good that I almost bit into a loaf of french bread... mmm.

So feeling very good about myself for saving gas, the environment and my willingness to exercise, I hopped on my clean new bike, put on the ugly ass blue helmet I bought at Walmart this weekend and went on a seemingly calm bike ride.
Yeah, seemingly calm until I came upon my first "mountain" on the road. It was a slight upward grade not even noticeable when you are driving, but on a bike it was quite a workout. Getting to the store was not the problem, it was on the way back, backpack stuffed with groceries that I started to realize that this may not have been a good idea. The eggs especially concerned me because the bagger boy decided to put them on top of the fruit even though I specifically told him to put it separately because I'm riding a bike... so the entire ride home I was praying the eggs didn't fall off the fruit and bump into the salad dressing bottle.

I got over the same upward grade, huffing and puffing more this time, because there was a few pounds of food on my back and got home in time to find that everything was intact and not broken. I put all the food away and sat down to relax a bit... and that is when it hit me that there is a grocery store across the street from the house. At least I got a great workout... for three pieces of items that I could've walked across the street for. :-)

Guitar Hero Marathon

2008-07-26T23:33:00.001-07:00

Guitar hero is hard, but so much fun!
We got the Aerosmith game and now I can't stop rockin' out.
Being that they are my favorite band, its so cool to be able to play their songs on the game.

After playing for 2 hours straight, my fingers hurt, I'm starving but I am very proud of my air guitar abilities... and my ability to follow directions. Funny how you could tell that I was getting tired because I was messing up even on the easy level...

I applaud the genius person who invented this game, its so cool. I actually broke out in quite a sweat playing this for nearly two hours, not sure how many calories I burned. Seems I have some musical talent after all... haha, wish my choir teacher saw me today then she would regret being so mean to me in HS.

So I am exhausted form playing GUitar Hero, but it was a fun way to end the day.

Project Baby

2008-07-22T20:35:00.000-07:00

is still not a success... and its really getting depressing.
I am running out of the "next time it will happen" option because it feels like every freakin' month is going to be another disappointment.

Sorry to be so negative, but I'm feeling pretty sad... again... and again...
I'm tired of people telling me to relax, not to think about it and that it will happen in due time.
What the hell is due time???

This is so frustrating... I guess I'll just give up for now. And hope to be surprised, the good way.

Exhaustion

2008-07-18T20:40:00.000-07:00

Back from vacation and the week was a whirlwind week... I have been so busy that I just realized its Friday. I have been so tired all week, post vacation let down.
I am having a great month at work though... better than last month for sure.

I'm actually even too tired to write this blog so I think I'm going to stop for now.

Back from the Midwest

2008-07-16T19:46:00.000-07:00

Well we are back from our Milwaukee/Chicago trip. It was really awesome, mostly because we were surrounded by friends, great food, beautiful sights, an adorable dog, and super weather! The picture above is of us in the Tour Boat taking the Chicago River cruise.

We saw the Giants vs. Cubbs baseball game, and even though we lost that game being at Wrigley park was truly a great experience. It is the only park that I have seen so far that has one of those old fashioned scoreboards. The kind that a person is inside of and has to change the scores by hand. Must be really hot in there. From where we were sitting you could see the beautiful Chicago skyline and all the buildings the city is famous for.
I never get tired of Chicago, even though I have been there more than once.

Austin took us on a boat tour around the city, it was on the Chicago river and we saw all the building the city is famous for. I don't think I've seen as much architecture as I did that day. It was awesome!

We also went to Milwaukee, which was really nice too, its more of a quieter city, we were there on a Saturday and not many people were outside. Regardless, it was a great time.

I will post some pictures later.

We are now back home, back in the swing of things. I did not miss the scurry of life here in CA, it seems that in Winsconsin is much slower and more peaceful.

Cheers to a great summer! :-)

I knew I was out of shape, but this is sad...

2008-07-07T22:03:00.000-07:00

I had my Zumba Fitness class tonight. Is a combination aerobics/latin dance and let me tell you I have not sweat this much in a really long time. Its on every Monday and Tuesday night at the Fairfield community center.
Its kinda cool because there are many people, some are really experienced and some, like me, can not keep a step to save my life.
I knew I had no hand eye coordination, but that I have no concept of moving my hips was really weird to me because I've always been about my hips... I've been blessed with nice "curvatious" ones so I should know how to shake them... one would think.

I am going to be so sore tomorrow, but the good thing is I have water aerobics tomorrow so that should hopefully stretch me out a bit.

Taking all these classes was a great idea. I've met so many cool people, I'm getting a better feeling about living here, not so lonely anymore. I just have to remember to keep going to these classes.

On another note, I had an awesome weekend. Sonia (my sister) was up here with us all weekend.
We had a BBQ on the beach on Friday, that was an adventure by itself driving down to Santa Cruz on a holiday, but it was well worth it once I got there. I have the sunburn to prove it too. :-)
We came back to Fairfield and saw and heard some fireworks on the way here. Funny that I am not all that excited about fireworks anymore, maybe because its the second year in a row that we missed them.
Saturday we went to the Giants vs Dodgers game and watched the Giants beat the crap out of the Dodgers, great game!
I stuffed myself with garlic fries (and then I wonder how I put on all this weight) and smelled like garlic all weekend.

Sunday we were lazy until the afternoon, took Sonia home, then helped Matt and Jane move into a bigger apartment. That was nice, then had dinner at Mike's parent's house.

Great weekend, now I'm ready to go on my Chicago trip! Yaaay!

Chlorine smells funny

2008-07-01T21:32:00.001-07:00

I had my first Aqua Aerobics class tonight and it was a lot of fun.
Actually it was quite a work out, I can feel my muscles hurting.
Some of those muscles I forgot I had... its funny how you forget what a good feeling it is to have a great workout.
We were in the water for about an hour, I was all pruned up... it was kinda gross to see my skin all wrinkled up like that.
I made a new friend though, so thats a plus.

The only downside of this class is that I still smell like chlorine, I've taken a shower and lotioned up and still smell like chlorine.
I hope this funny smell goes away soon.
Maybe I'll go take another shower...

Summer Trip #2

2008-06-30T22:39:00.001-07:00

We are getting ready to go to Chicago for a few days.
Well, technically its Wisconsin and Chicago.
I'm excited, even though I've been to Chicago a few times by now, its still my favorite city in the US.

Mike is excited to see two baseball games. We are going to see the Brewers and the Cubs, both are playing the Giants at the time we are there so this is going to work out great. Finding Cubs tickets is a whole other story. I'm leaving that search to my husband.

Chicago never gets old to me. Between the museums, the architecture of the buildings, the shopping opportunities, the lake there is so much to see and do. Who could forget the famous Pizzaria Uno, which is great pizza, but I'm sort of partial to Beau Jo's now in Fort Collins.

I love traveling, even if I have been to the place I'm going to. If I could travel for the rest of my life I would see all the countries in the world. Seeing as that is never going to happen I'm content going to a few places every year.

After this trip I have a August business trip to Las Vegas (poor me). Hopefully this year it will be better than last year's trip.
Well I better go get ready for my day tomorrow, I have so many appointments I don't know where to start.

Oh, my aqua aerobics class starts tomorrow too, that should be a lot of fun!

Its easier to breathe now

2008-06-28T11:15:00.000-07:00

Its depressing driving anywhere in this crazy smokey world.
It just keeps on burning and releasing more and more crap into the air.
My car was LINED with ash, so much for the pretty blue car I got.
Although the fire is 100% contained now, its still not controlled, but at least there is an end in sight.
The weather keeps on changing from really hot to quite chilly actually.
They said by Sunday this smoke should clear, which would be nice because I would love to see the blue sky again.

Wow, I sound really depressed... thats not good. I"m going ot go now and come back later.

Can't breathe

2008-06-25T21:17:00.000-07:00

The fire is slowly letting up, it is now 50% contained.
Still there is so much smoke and ash in the air, its really unpleasant to be outside.
I was hoping that by this time it would clear up, but I suppose with as many fires as we have going on here in CA I'm not one bit surprised.
I hope that our flowers will survive this week, I doubt they are getting much sun through that smoke layer we have settled over the city.

I have not been able to go for my walks, feeling so lazy again. At least my dance class and swimming class is starting next week, so that should be a lot of fun.

Grass fires

2008-06-22T16:35:00.001-07:00

Things are a little scary right now, with all theses local fires happening right in our neighborhood we are on alert at this time.
The Napa valley fire quickly turned into the Fairfield fire, they said it was a 4 alarm fire and so far one house was destroyed.

You can see the smoke from our bedroom window and our cars were covered with ash.
It sucks being stuck inside so as not to breathe in all that toxic smoke and ash.

Well here is hoping that this will pass us by.

Denver Trip

2008-06-17T19:42:00.000-07:00

Denver was awesome!
Someday I could see living there... maybe.
We went to visit a friend and had a great time.
Went hiking, all the while having the Rockies as a great view in front of us.
We also went to Fort Collins, walked around Colorado State and went to Beau Jo's pizza place, which makes the best pizza pie in the world!!!!

It was a great relaxing time, I don't think I have been that relaxed in a long time.
Then of course being back at work, its tough, but somehow I'm managing.

I'm trying this relaxing thing more, its good for me not to get so worked up about everything. Sometimes I catch myself being negative and stressed, so I'm trying to work on that.

Tomorrow is Wednesday, yaay, middle of the week.

Earthquake at the mall

2008-06-03T20:07:00.000-07:00

Wow, that was so scary.
I was at Macy's tonight, just shopping around and all of a sudden we had a huge jolt... it felt like a big truck hit the store.
Although the whole thing only lasted maybe 5 seconds, it scared me.

Came home, nothing really broke, but some of Mike's figures fell off the shelf.
That was scary...

Picking up where I left off...

2008-05-29T20:36:00.000-07:00

Its so hard being back to work after a four-day weekend.
I am soo lazy this week, didn't have the stamina or the mind set to do anything productive this week. Yet I managed to book a deal at work, so that makes me feel semi productive.
Come to think of it, I shouldn't complain, I fought so hard to get this job and now I'm doing so good at it...I think this is enough motivation to keep going. Like the energizer bunny. :-)

This weekend will be fun, I'm going home to stay with my parents for the weekend.
This has not happened in YEARS!!! I'm kind of excited to see how it will go... sleeping in my old bed, in my old room...
Mike is off on a boys weekend with Chris, they are going to the Iron Maiden concert in Irvine on Saturday so I figured I'll go home and hang with the family, nothing better to do here anyway.

I've been realizing that there is not a whole lot to do here in Fairfield. Its not a very exciting town.
I miss the youngness of San Jose, granted that was in my college days, but I don't really have a "hang out place" here.
Sometimes I get lonely, all my friends are far away, or have kids of their own so they are not able to hang out as much as I would like to. That gets hard for me. I miss my friends in Hungary too, I just found some of them after years of not knowing anything about them.

Well I'm sure things will work out, they always do...

Great Birthday

2008-05-27T20:20:00.000-07:00

Today is my 29th birthday and it was a good day.
I took the day off of work to do nothing... and that is exactly what I did.

I had lunch with Ang, she has the same birthday too, so Happy Birthday Ang ( I know you read this blog more than other people do). Then I just hung out at home.

Mike took me out to a nice dinner and surprised me with a bouquet of gorgeous peach colored roses. THose are my favorite color roses. It was so sweet.

Overall it was a great day, I still have a few hours left so I'm going to enjoy it. Unfortunate that I have to go back to work tomorrow. I suppose I have to at some point in time. :-)

day off

2008-05-26T10:32:00.000-07:00

Its Monday and no work today!
I love these kind of holidays, three day weekends are awesome.

I am not doing ANYTHING today, just going to sit at home, watch TV, maybe go for a walk, and just relax.

Tomorrow is my birthday!

Vacation time

2008-05-22T17:37:00.001-07:00

I am off of work for 5 days! Hurray!
Tomorrow I am going to sleep in, then when I wake up I'm going to do nothing for a few hours, then go pick up my computer's power cord that I left at work... then I'm going to get a massage.
I decided to treat myself to a massage for my birthday, never had one in a professional spa, so I am really looking forward to it.
Then I am possibly meeting a friend for coffee and then I'm coming home to watch a girly movie... life is good.

Saturday my sister and I are going to go shopping at Valley Fair in Santa Clara, then we are going to Jaime's dance recital in Redwood city then coming back home... long day but it should be a lot of fun.
Sunday is my birthday party... this is the last time I"m having a party, getting too old for this stuff. :-)

I have to practice playing Guitar Hero so I don't look like a fool in front of my friends.

Monday is a holiday, I'm not going to do anything, Mike is still working, bummer...
Tuesday is my birthday, I'm probably going to go get a pedicure... its time for that too. I'm also meeting Ang for lunch, its her birthday too. So cool to have a friend with the same birthday as me.

So this is looking like its going to be an awesome five days... can't wait.